My Little Haven

How can you say if you love the person?

amswalk — Wed, 17 Dec 2008 08:47:00 +0000

12/17/08

A very tough question.
Got this from my fellow blogger while i was on a bloghop
so,quoted it..

“Its loving the WHOLE Package….

and the EXCESS BAGGAGE!”

Thanks for this thought…

Bloggy

amswalk — Tue, 16 Dec 2008 06:24:00 +0000

12/16/08

bloggy, been missing you.. T_T
dontwori, after all these school stuffs im gonna post more entries.
ahiii..ive found a cute song chords. ^^ gonna try this for sure.
LOL,, im so lazy right now in going to school.haha
is it because Christmas break is fast approaching?haha

*overwhelmed w/ joy*
nevermind..just super-duper happy right now.haha
of course not that im inspired by someone..
its just that im happy giving what i have without expecting something in return.
not for someone i really love but for people who i just knew this day..haha
you can’t give what you don’t have.ayt? so im just sharing the blessings i had received from God on this very day..

(to be continued…)

The Unutterable Words (Last Part)

amswalk — Mon, 15 Dec 2008 04:08:00 +0000

Again, i haven’t talk to him for almost a week or two?
Nothing.. I just remembered him
And Im not bothered if he too remembers me just once in a while.
I dont care, and i wont be expecting anything from him,
Now that we’re too far from each other.
I dont exactly know why its haunting me since the day we had met.
Ahh…stop! stop! stop! I dont wanna spend my time thinking about
stuff which im not suppose to be thinking.

Moving on…

Untitled

amswalk — Sat, 13 Dec 2008 16:14:00 +0000

12/14/08

*looking for chiffon cake recipe*

huwaa..dont know what to type..
ill update you 2mro.bye2 blog!

Scarlet

amswalk — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 05:01:00 +0000

12/11/08

♥

(A song from Ayashi no Ceres)

Can you still see your dreams in the distant, starry sky?
Are they more vivid than they were when you were little?

When one forgets to put the emotions that overflow in her heart to rest, they burn the color of passion.

I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were.
But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.

Dreams are more fragile and fleeting than a glass rose,
so then why are we destined to dream?

Sometimes two dreams can turn into love,
but there are also times when they can’t.

Even when they’re alone, people want to share their feelings, but it can be so hard.
Words are powerless to express one’s feelings, and sometimes they become a silver knife.

I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were.
But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.

———————————
later q na tpusin.ahehe my pasok pa kac..

Alone

amswalk — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 04:46:00 +0000

12/11/08

Alone
(English translation)

A dry breeze is blowing
The city is getting cold
I wonder how many seasons have passed
Without even a sound?

All of the people coming and going
Bear heavy burdens,
Searching for tomorrow
Within the heat haze wavering in the distance.

Feelings like sand
Falling through my hands…
Back then, the words that pierced my heart
Suddenly started to throb with pain, but…

I’ve searched for pieces of myself,
Counting the endless nights all the while.
These feelings are becoming so certain
I almost lose myself.
Right now, without fail, I will walk forward, however far.

I wonder, why is the sky
So vast?
Even though I tried to yell, my voice didn’t come
And the tears poured out.

I wonder where the birds are flying off to,
As they freely slice through the wind?
One can’t return to the same place
As it once was in days gone by.

Even if I give up my dream like this,
I won’t suppress my soaring heartbeat.
Someday, I want to reach
As high as the clouds.
I’ll spread wide the wings in my heart and journey once again

I will reach it, without fail.

I’ve searched for pieces of myself,
Counting the endless nights all the while.
These feelings are becoming so certain
I almost lose myself.
Right now, without fail, I will walk forward, however far

=================
A song from Gensoumaden Saiyuki.
Got the song title from my classmates Menas and Diane who were an anime addict.
am not an anime fan, though..
its just the song im attracted to, u know. *grin*

Moving on…

amswalk — Mon, 08 Dec 2008 03:58:00 +0000

12/8/08

Now playing: Another Day – Mojofly

♥
miss ko na ang FM at mga tao dun.
computer-related course sana kunin ko
kya nga lang ng-iba na decision ko..
what’s with u brain?? haha
gusto ko sana dumalaw dun kaya lg baka maadik na nman ako sa kkgawa ng layouts..
kaya buti pa mag mgmove-on na ako..ahehe
happy nman ako ngaun sa course ko..
no regrets..masaya mgbake ng cakes!
nkakapagod lang ang housekeeping subj kac kelangan tlga mglinis.hehe

thanks naman at npadalaw c sis aufelle sa blog ko.at least papano mjo mbabawasn pagkamiss ko sa fmians.hehe

xia nga pla,,about my previous entry..
parang di ko xia like.ahaha
cnxa na..resulta lg yun ng boredom..
i’ve changed already.. see?haha
we can’t avoid nman mdepress paminsan2 dba?
its better to be emotional sometimes para naman mailabas mga hinanaing mo
dan to suppress it.kaw lang din masasaktan.ayt?

“smile and the world smiles with you.
cry and you cry alone.”

that’s the reality naman eh.
Each time we wake up,
we only have two choices to make.
and that’s only to be happy or sad.
if you wanna be happy all day
then you have to make the right choice-be happy.
if you wanna be sad then its up to you..
Remember, we are the ones making the choices and our future depends on how we make our decisions..

And because every single moment counts,be it happy or sad,we should seize the day with courage & hope!!!
Let’s enjoy life and keep our spirits high..hiyeah!!
(ang kyut ng emoticons q.ayiiih)

Just Pondering…

amswalk — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 17:16:00 +0000

12/8/08

Now Playing: Wake Up by Mojofly

♥

argh…im jz wasting my time doing nothing in front of my monitor..
my stomach is shouting for food again..
anyway,i dont have a class tomorrow..
its not a loss but an opportunity for me..hurray.haha
i can go online till morning..
oopz i promiz last night not to stay late again.did i?

*a big deep sigh*
when will these scars just fade away? its frustrating me..
im wondering how can i —

oh btw, im planning to have a vacation on Christmas break..
um,,,at the hospital.haha
hayz,,i haven’t told my parents regarding this matter.im so concerned about my cruise on summer.where should i get the money for my practicum?
hmm,,i think i have to prioritize first my health..id be going 21 soon and —-

when will these pains stop pestering me?
can i just go on considering im not sick?
awtz,,how?everytime i look at myself in the mirror,
im scared looking at my own reflection.ahehe
hay,no kidding..

how can i not mind these things?my eyes,my skin, and my ..

what makes me more sick is when people ask me why this and that..
is there someone who could just accept me without knowing what’s really on my past?im so tired explaining over and over again…
if i could just record those then surely it wouldn’t bother me and moreover i wont be wasting a little of my saliva it wont be paining my heart.ayt??? coz everytime im telling what had happened, its breaking me down instead of being thankful id survive. i just can’t forget those things easily..esp the struggles and hardship of my love ones for me..

i owe them my life. have to do such things to repay those hardships they did for me..
but maybe for the meantime,i have to work on
my self first, even though some people might say im selfish..

(to be continued..)

The Unutterable Words Part 3

amswalk — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 04:07:00 +0000

again,, im troubled by the same existing person
and I can’t really tell if he’s an imaginary being
i just made up on my mind or a real existing one.

The bliss which transpired long months ago
had eventually awaken me again -
The thing which Im expecting chances with.

Yet the more it’s getting closer to me,
the more i feel so awkward grasping it on my hands too tight
just to avoid being redrifted away by the wind.

Yeah, i admit im a coward.
Afraid it would escape from me again but
embracing it is the fact that would be hard for me to do.

How would I welcome it when Im not so sure about it?
Its hard to pretend its nothing when in fact it could be everything?
Everthing I’ve dreamed of.. wished of!
Everthing I’ve longed for and prayed for!

Who would come to believe that?..
You might be saying its a Lie!
Imaginations aren’t that real right?

Boredom Strikes

amswalk — Sat, 06 Dec 2008 15:05:00 +0000

12/6/08

Listening to: Moment of Truth by Fm Static

♥ai excuse me, ano nlg ni ya?hahaha im bored.la na my gsbay skon.ahehe its ok.
ikaw nlg gni storyahon ko
ahai…if i could just type ALL whats playing on my mind, i would.
but maybe it would take me years to type everything what’s stirring me up.LOL

wait.ill just get myself something to eat.*eating-a-donut mode*

im back.hmm..Nu nami nga fillings for choco cake mn?
BRB

hay huo joi.mau gd na nhimo mu.pulaw na nman.grrr
promiz,just a few more minutes.(few? more?LOL im confused)
i’ll jz wait for my momci n company to arrive.

“♪..♫..and i miss you more
whenever i think about you.
..been so long since we’ve been talking
and in a few more days we’ll both hook up,
forever and ever..♪..♫.♪....”

*photoshopping mode<—miz dz 1* guess i can sleep by now.ahehe gnyt… signing off